One great thing I can do (well maybe it isn't great, it depends on who you are and how you look at it) is compartmentalize. I can usually keep all of my feelings under control and show what I want and deal with things when I'm ready. Well dealing with the move to Hawaii is one of those things that I've tucked away into a neat little box until I'm ready to handle it. And even then, I let it out in tiny pieces. The past two days have been nutty and today I'm dealing with a little bit of the move stuff, so I'm gonna let a little crazy out.
Thats what I do, store up all that crazy and then let it out in little spurts at random moments. yep. fun.
Yesterday my speaker on my iPhone called the quits. I can hear it when I use speaker phone or my headset, but besides that, its kaput. :( So now I get to be one of those annoying people who walk around in crowds talking at the top of their lungs on the speaker phone and annoying the tar out of anyone within ear shot. yeah! Oh and I can upgrade in November or pay $169 to get a refurbished phone now. But thats not all! I came home yesterday to a big hole in the pantry floor that my puppy put there! Yeah, you heard right. My dog ATE the floor. I don't mean she dug a hole in the floor, or tore apart part of the linoleum, she ate the linoleum, she ate the sub-floor and she pulled out insulation. She is really super sweet, but good gosh I'm ready for this puppy-tearing-everything-to-shreds stage to be over!
Today I was determined to have a better day. I got up ready to mow the forest my lawn has become and headed out to do that before it got too hot. Only to discover that the lawn mower STILL doesn't work right! 4 months and my lawn mower has yet to work right more than twice. Arrgghhh!! So I spent the morning on the phone with the insurance company about the floor, customer service about the lawn mower, and filing paperwork for our move to Hawaii. And because my phone's speaker doesn't work right, it was quite the challenge to get that much done. Oh yeah, and I did 4 loads of laundry and had a play date with some friends. :)
It really is a good thing I can compartmentalize like I do. Because if I didn't, I think I would really go crazy from all of this mess. I'm very grateful for my wonderful friends who come over and listen to me bellyache about my problems and help me with yard work even though I didn't ask. But in all the stress and mess, I'm at peace. God has a plan for our family. I know this because Satan is trying so hard to stop us and tear us down. I'm really excited for this transition in our life, even though its taking us away from loved ones. This journey is worth all the obstacles we're facing. You know you're doing something right, when everything is going wrong (or against you at least). So while I sit on my couch crying and silently freaking out over the hole in the floor, the move, and the thought of "what else could go wrong", I'm remembering that there is a plan, there always has been and that God is in control of it all. Feeling peace while you're crying and not necessarily feeling happy or sad. yep. I'm having a crazy moment!
Let the crazy out people! |
Love you guys..... ;)
Mya