Time to spare...

If the past week is any indicator as to how the next 6+ months will go, then we're in for a LONG deployment. In the past I've had work, church, appointments, etc, etc to do to keep me busy and my mind off of things. This time around things are different. We're homeschooling. Which means we spend a LOT of time at HOME. I don't work anymore. We still go to church, but have cut back on a lot of our extracurricular activities. So again, we spend a LOT of time AT HOME. Which means I have a lot of time to spend missing Jon and not a lot of distractions. This is going to be very hard on me. I'm always under a lot of stress between the kids doctor appointments, behavior, homeschooling and medicine changes. I'm not used to being home this much either. I like getting out of my house. Unfortunately for me, the kids do well with having time at home. So I'm preparing myself to be stretched. But I also need distractions (things to stay busy). So I'm looking into some things to do.

God has done amazing things in the past for our family. And I know He has amazing things in store for us. But good things almost never come easy or without some pain (either waiting, change, whatever it may be that is "painful"). I know that I am never ready for whats ahead. I can never be prepared enough for anything that might happen. I also know that God is ALWAYS enough. He is ALWAYS prepared. And He is ALWAYS ready. God HAS to be enough, because nothing else is. I try to remind myself of that all throughout the day. And I will be trying even harder through the next month. Because over the next month (and possibly several months) we are cutting back on Amara's medicines. I'm not sure what is ahead of us. It might go great, it might go horribly wrong. I've had this song going through my mind though, and it has been reminding me how faithful God is. And its made extra special because its written by 2 of my best friends. ;) If I had any kind of recording, I'd share it. But there will be a recording in the future and I'll be sure to post it when its out. Not really a long post today, or anything that dramatic, but its whats been on my heart.