So I haven't posted in a little while. I've had so much going on lately, and I really needed to just take some time and process things. Where to start...I'll just start where I remember things, so the timeline isn't going to be great.

Tay had her urology appointment at NMCP. It went okay. Not fantastic, because I didn't get all the answers I wanted/needed, but I got the answers I expected. Referral to go back and see the urologist at CHKD to find out our options. She is grade 2 now, which is down 1 grade since her procedure. She's been put back on prophylactic antibiotics also. We are using the "potty watch" again to help remind her to go potty, and she's been doing pretty good with it.

I've been doing some research on supplements lately too. My friend Katie knows a lot about them and is helping me out. I am doing this so that I can get Tay on some probiotics (to replace her good bacteria that the meds are wiping out) and so that I can get on some supplements to make up for all the vitamins/minerals that I don't get because of all my stupid food allergies. :/

Last week I found myself slipping into my old "Jon's away" habits. Is this bad? Well to most people, probably not. You see when Jon is gone for a long time, theres some attitudes I start to get. I do not consider these attitudes good or acceptable for me, regardless of whether he is here or not. Most people will hear this and think, "well its understandable that you get that way when he's gone" and no, its not, theres no excuse for a poor attitude. So what is it that I do? Well I become thing negative, mean, sometimes bad tempered, intolerant of people, ugly, a big downer. I start to push away my friends by saying or doing things that are mean or maybe offending. I DONT like this! My friends that I get to play with in the band are like family to me. They care for me and take care of me and I love them. But I found myself on Wed night in a very evil kinda mood. And I said things to 2 of my best friends that were very mean and ugly and I was just negative that night. And for that, I am sorry.

I do tend to have less of a filter than most people. I put my foot in my mouth quite a bit when I'm in good moods and say things that I have no clue that they are mean or offensive. And thats when I'm not being negative. So when I get in these moods, I can be downright evil to people, and the worse part is that I know it! My "filter" goes out the window when Jon's gone. I forget to check what I'm saying before I say it, and that can get me in a lot of trouble with people and turn my friends into enemies. I am by no means trying to make excuses. But, and I'm putting myself out there with all the web being able to see this, if I am acting that way towards you or anyone else and you see/hear it, please keep me accountable.

What else is happening....my friend S is having surgery today and I am keeping her 2 kids (same ages as mine) for 2 days so she can have some recovery time. Pray for my sanity the next few days, I'm gonna need it! I'm praying that all goes well with her surgery and that me and the kids do okay. We'll probably go to the Revival meeting at church tonight so that we can get out. It's an illusionist call Brock Gill and its supposed to be fantastic!

So thats my update on the past few weeks and whats happening this week. Thanks for listening!